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Enduring

Enduring is not easy. Oh no! Yet, when I think about my Lord, and all He went through, I know that what I go through is minor. Did you ever notice how when we hear other people’s problems our own are not as bad?

Many of my friends also suffer in various ways. I pray for them, and I know they pray for me, that our pain may be lessened. Some of the people I admire most have been those who suffered much more than I ever will. Just to name two: Spencer W. Kimball and Neal A. Maxwell. Yet they endured well. I pray I may be as valiant as they.

We all suffer in one form or another. The thing that keeps me going is my faith in Jesus Christ. When I am in great pain, I do what my doctor(s) tell me to do, yet I also take it to the Lord. I am a firm believer that  Jesus Christ has restored the Priesthood back to the Earth to bless men and women, and so I ask for blessings at the hands of those who not only hold, but “honor” that Priesthood. Just because someone says they are a priest does not make then one. Only those who “Honor Their Covenants” and “Keep the Commandments or strive so to do” are worthy to hold the “Power” that comes with that calling. (Just my humble opinion.)

Anne Morrow Lindbergh wisely cautioned:

“I do not believe that sheer suffering teaches. If suffering alone taught, all the world would be wise, since everyone suffers. To suffering must be added mourning, understanding, patience, love, openness and the willingness to remain vulnerable” (quoted in “Lindbergh Nightmare,” Time, 5 February 1973, 35).

Certain forms of suffering, endured well, can actually be ennobling.

Annie Swetchine said,

“Those who have suffered much are like those who know many languages; they have learned to understand and be understood by all” (quoted in Neal A. Maxwell, We Will Prove Them Herewith [1982], 123).

When I reflect upon my Saviour and think upon all he endured at the hands of others, I cringe. I tend to whine from time to time over my struggles, yet He never did. They spit upon him. They beat him. They scourged him with whips. They cast him in prison. They dragged him through the town naked and placed a crown of thorns upon his head, before they nailed him to that cross. And to make it even worse, they did that “after” he had bled at every pore because of the pains, mourning, depression, injustice and sins of everyone who ever has been born, who was then alive, and all who would yet be born. Yet, he still had compassion.

Jesus Christ rose victorious over death and He did that for you and me. Our pains only last a short time compared to the pains of those who reject him or refuse to repent of their own sins.

Another wise man, who was also a prophet of God, Gordon B. Hinckley once said,

“Don’t get discouraged, things will work out!”

I hung that quote with his photograph on the wall in my bedroom. When I am feeling sorry for myself, and start to get discouraged, I look up and see it, and know things will work out. I turn my head and look upon my other wall and see the picture of the current Prophet, Thomas S. Monson, and think about him telling me to:

“Be more positive…”

When President Ezra Taft Benson called me to Salt Lake City, Utah, he said (among other things):

“Hang the words of the prophets on your walls, and then go out and do good.”

I am a firm believer in following the prophets and have always been blessed because I do that. It is not that I do not experience problems, for I surely do. It is that after – I experience greater blessings and that makes it worth whatever I have gone through.

In the Holy Bible we read:

“And every one that hath forsaken houses, or brethren, or sisters, or father, or mother, or wife, or children, or lands, for my name’s sake, shall receive an hundredfold, and shall inherit everlasting life.” (Matthew 19:29)

God does not lie.

Gentle hugs from a distance.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Children

“When you choose whether to make or keep a covenant with God, you choose whether you will leave an inheritance of hope to those who might follow your example.” Henry B Eyring, Apostle of the Lord Jesus Christ.

The day my eldest child was born, I felt such deep joy. I felt she was the reason I had been born and allowed to live. This precious little gift straight from God to earth. And I had the honor to usher her into this life. I had prayed that I would be blessed with a family and now I was blessed to see the reality. I held her in my arms, and she just snuggled right in.

It was my joy to feed her and teach her to talk, allow her to walk, and play and enjoy the air and sunshine. Until November 1965, she was mine to love. She was born 23 August 1964 in Bellflower, Los Angeles, California.

When my son, Phillip LeRoy was born, my husband felt deep joy. It matched my own, as now I had two sweet little ones to love. He was born 3 November 1965 in Norwalk, Los Angeles, California. Until Thanksgiving night of 1965 they were both my angels to feed and love and hold.

In 1982 I received a telephone call from an attorney. He told me that my son was in a foster home, and they wanted to adopt him. They needed me to sign the papers to allow that to happen. I let him know that I wanted to at least see my son before I would sign anything. Up until that point, I did not even know if he was alive or dead. He said that was not allowed. I told him I would never sign anything until I had the opportunity to see my son. Then I hung up.

He called back at a later time and let me know the address of the foster home. I made the arrangements and went. As I saw this young man leaning against the door, I could see in him his father, thus I knew it was really my baby in a young man’s body. Slowly, I got out of the car and as I approached him, his foster mother came out the door. She invited us into the house, and I kept staring at Phillip.

Some time later the three of us went to a little coffee shop. I was sitting next to my son and she was telling me all they could give him. My heart was breaking. They could give him all those things I had wanted him to have. I had nothing to give him. Only my love, and he did not know how I felt. He had never really even met me before. After listening, I asked my son if that is what he wanted. He said, “yes”. I told her I needed a little bit of time, but I would sign.

I must admit, I never did sign that paper. As I was standing out back by the corral, crying on the neck of a horse, I heard my son say, “Lets run away together.”  I turned and said, “Let me go tell your foster parents you are coming with me.” He begged me to say nothing, just run. I told him that if I did that, I would go to prison and then we could never be together. He ran away and the foster parents let me know I needed to leave.

In 1986 I was blessed to go the House of the Lord, the Los Angeles Temple and learn who I really am, and that families were meant to be together for all eternity. I made certain covenants while there, and I treasure those promises made unto me.

The next time I saw my children was in Colorado. The year was 1989, and my babies were all grown up. I was only allowed to stay for very short visit, yet I saw what they looked like. No longer did I see my little girl as a wee one. No longer did I mourn over what might have been, but rather, I learned that when we are obedient to our covenants, Father does bless us with our hearts desires. I was reunited with my children and that means more to me than what happened.

I would like to share with you more words spoken by a man of God:

“After all we can do in faith, the Lord will justify our hopes for greater blessings for our families than we can imagine. He wants the best for them and for us, as His children.

“We are all children of a living God. Jesus of Nazareth is His Beloved Son and our resurrected Savior. This is His Church. In it are the keys of the priesthood, and so families can be forever. This is our priceless heritage of hope. I testify that it is true in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ, amen.” By President Henry B. Eyring, First Counselor in the First Presidency of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day-saints.”

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One Mercy from God

I love what Elder Oaks once said in regard to us who have suffered at the poor choices others made:

“While God will not prevent those choices, He will bless us to endure the consequences of other’s choices. And those whose mortal opportunities are cut short or reduced by the choices of others eventually have every blessing and opportunity offered through the Mercy and Atonement of Jesus Christ.”  Elder Dallin H. Oaks, Apostle of Jesus Christ. A member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day-saints. He is also a well known speaker and an attorney.

I personally know that the gift of Agency was not free. We all pay a price and Jesus Christ, the Son of the Most High God paid the highest price. He took upon himself our pain. Not just the sins of the world, but our pain. Yes, He knows about pain, suffering at the hands of others. He knows how we felt when beaten, starved, abused in horrendous ways, that we feel no one else understands. Yet He understands.

Many times, I have felt his tender mercy as I have felt His loving influence sweep over me. Many times I have felt lifted from off this horrible planet where others only saw beauty. Many times I have wanted to die rather than suffer more torture at the hands of evil men and women. Yet, through it all, Father was watching and weeping. The Lord paid a very high price for us, all because He loves us. I had never felt that dept of love that He has shown me.

I’m sorry if many of you do not know Him. I am sorry if this bothers you, but I just want you to know that I know God lives. I do pray this will not be deleted, but if it is, I have said my piece. Thank you for caring about me. It means a lot to me, as a feral child, to have others hear me.

I love this song. It speak volumes of love. When I hear the sweet voices of children in song it send chills down my spine. I hope you all have a great day. Hugs from a distance.

Photograph by Steve Gills.

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God will not be mocked

https://www.lds.org/general-conference/1975/10/a-message-to-the-world?lang=eng#listen=audio

Back in 1975 a prophet of God foretold our time. I ask you to listen to his words and then get on your knees and ask God to bless America. Then, stand up and do something. You know what you need to do. I beg of you, for the sake of our nation, do it.

If you do not, then I bid you goodbye until we meet again at the feet of our Lord and Savior, even Jesus Christ. He is coming. I know not when, but I do know this: God will not be mocked. Look around you. Is it you?

Another prophet of God told us:

“Save for the exception of the very few who defect to perdition, there is no habit, no addiction, no rebellion, no transgression, no apostasy, no crime exempted from the promise of complete forgiveness. That is the promise of the Atonement of Christ.”

The prophets of God never lie. This is not all who call themselves prophets, but those whom God really called. They can only be found in the Church of Jesus Christ (did you see that name?) of Latter-day-saints.

There is good in all religions, yet there is only One Jesus Christ. Not many. Only One. Whom are you following? As for me and my house, we shall serve the Lord and follow the Living Prophets of God.

Acts 1: 11 says Angels came when Jesus had risen from the dead:

“Which also said, Ye men of Galilee, why stand ye gazing up into heaven? this same Jesus, which is taken up from you into heaven, shall so come in like manner as ye have seen him go into heaven.”

Let no man fool you. Only God knows the exact day and time. But read your scriptures, and see what the Lord himself says about this time.

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Meditation

http://www.mormontabernaclechoir.org/listen/live?lang=eng#d go to “If You Could Hie To Kolob”

When I need to be unpolluted, I used to go up to the mountains. High up, where humans do not go any longer. There used to be a spot high up in the Colorado rocky mountains, just above Rifle.  It was close to an old Ghost town. I went above that.

At night, I gazed up into the sky and saw Heaven. I know you may say that is not heaven, but have you ever really seen that type of view? I mean, really seen what is up there? It is only a small portion of God’s handiwork. a minute speck of His works. And yet, with all He has created, He knows our names. Each and every one of us.

After a week or so up there, I could come back down into the world below and dwell among humans without being grumpy or sad. Truth does set you free, and I want you know that since Joining the Church of the Son of God, even The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day-saints, I have found truth for the first time, out side of the voice of the Holy Spirit of God that is.

Real love is not the way the world shows it. Real love is of God. It is clean and decent. It is soul lifting, not soul being shamed.

Here is what God shared with the world of humans: His rules of real love:

THE FAMILY
A PROCLAMATION TO THE WORLD
The First Presidency and Council of the Twelve Apostles of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints

WE, THE FIRST PRESIDENCY and the Council of the Twelve Apostles of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, solemnly proclaim that marriage between a man and a woman is ordained of God and that the family is central to the Creator’s plan for the eternal destiny of His children.

ALL HUMAN BEINGS—male and female—are created in the image of God. Each is a beloved spirit son or daughter of heavenly parents, and, as such, each has a divine nature and destiny. Gender is an essential characteristic of individual premortal, mortal, and eternal identity and purpose.

IN THE PREMORTAL REALM, spirit sons and daughters knew and worshipped God as their Eternal Father and accepted His plan by which His children could obtain a physical body and gain earthly experience to progress toward perfection and ultimately realize their divine destiny as heirs of eternal life. The divine plan of happiness enables family relationships to be perpetuated beyond the grave. Sacred ordinances and covenants available in holy temples make it possible for individuals to return to the presence of God and for families to be united eternally.

THE FIRST COMMANDMENT that God gave to Adam and Eve pertained to their potential for parenthood as husband and wife. We declare that God’s commandment for His children to multiply and replenish the earth remains in force. We further declare that God has commanded that the sacred powers of procreation are to be employed only between man and woman, lawfully wedded as husband and wife.

WE DECLARE the means by which mortal life is created to be divinely appointed. We affirm the sanctity of life and of its importance in God’s eternal plan.

HUSBAND AND WIFE have a solemn responsibility to love and care for each other and for their children. “Children are an heritage of the Lord” (Psalm 127:3). Parents have a sacred duty to rear their children in love and righteousness, to provide for their physical and spiritual needs, and to teach them to love and serve one another, observe the commandments of God, and be law-abiding citizens wherever they live. Husbands and wives—mothers and fathers—will be held accountable before God for the discharge of these obligations.

THE FAMILY is ordained of God. Marriage between man and woman is essential to His eternal plan. Children are entitled to birth within the bonds of matrimony, and to be reared by a father and a mother who honor marital vows with complete fidelity. Happiness in family life is most likely to be achieved when founded upon the teachings of the Lord Jesus Christ. Successful marriages and families are established and maintained on principles of faith, prayer, repentance, forgiveness, respect, love, compassion, work, and wholesome recreational activities. By divine design, fathers are to preside over their families in love and righteousness and are responsible to provide the necessities of life and protection for their families. Mothers are primarily responsible for the nurture of their children. In these sacred responsibilities, fathers and mothers are obligated to help one another as equal partners. Disability, death, or other circumstances may necessitate individual adaptation. Extended families should lend support when needed.

WE WARN that individuals who violate covenants of chastity, who abuse spouse or offspring, or who fail to fulfill family responsibilities will one day stand accountable before God. Further, we warn that the disintegration of the family will bring upon individuals, communities, and nations the calamities foretold by ancient and modern prophets.

WE CALL UPON responsible citizens and officers of government everywhere to promote those measures designed to maintain and strengthen the family as the fundamental unit of society.

This proclamation was read by President Gordon B. Hinckley as part of his message at the General Relief Society Meeting held September 23, 1995, in Salt Lake City, Utah.

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Choose Ye This Day

“And see that all these things are done in wisdom and order; for it is not requisite that a man should run faster than he has strength. And again, it is expedient that he should be diligent, that thereby he might win the prize; therefore, all things must be done in order.” Mosiah 4:27

Marjorie Pay Hinckley added this:

“Choose carefully each day that which you will do and that which you will not do, and the Lord will bless you to accomplish the important things that have eternal consequences. At my age, I’ve edited the scripture just a little. “For is is not requisite that a woman should hobble faster than she has strength!”

I do so love that woman. I adored her husband. He was a prophet of God who blessed me in more ways than one.

From here down, please be advised I share things from my past, which might upset you. So be forewarned I don’t want to trigger anyone.

I can’t remember how old I was, all I know is, I was not yet a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day-saints, but this scripture from the King James version of the Holy Bible really struck me as truth:

Joshua 24:15

15 “And if it seem evil unto you to serve the Lord, choose you this day whom ye will serve; whether the gods which your fathers served that were on the other side of the flood, or the gods of the Amorites, in whose land ye dwell: but as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.”

Where I came from, family chose false gods. They chose Satan, sex, drugs, and violence, pornography, bondage and worse. In the past, others wanted details, but I will not share details. These are things that should never be spoken of, let alone lived. Many children struggle with these types of backgrounds which creates shame that is almost too much to bear.

I remember in one town I lived in, I was out walking the neighborhood and saw the Calling Cards of Pedophiles and Rapists. They were all over the walls to show where certain houses were that contained single women with children, and those where men worked nights. In the windows next to the spot where the train pulled into town were explicit Pedophile calling cards. I went up to the door of the establishment and told them I knew what those were and to please, take them down. They just laughed at me. I asked to speak to the owner of the building and was told I was speaking to him. I again repeated my request. He continued to laugh, so I left.

I prayed all the way to the City/County building and ask to see who owned that building. After I gathered the information, I went to speak to the Mayor. He assured me that he was there to protect the women and children in that city. I filed a permit to picket, then went back home and prayed. I began a fast, and the next day I went to where the women I knew were working on a project and informed them of what was coming. They just kept their heads down, and told me not worry about it. They were protected. I was furious. Just because they were married was not an excuse to place others in harms way. I left and went home to prepare to do what I knew I needed to do.

One woman found out and drove by where I was walking. She brought me water and dry socks. One man came and walked as long as he could, however he was also disabled, so could not stay long. Many people drive by who honked and gave me a thumbs up, yet I walked alone. I walked each day until dark, then came back the next morning. I walked for three days praying and walking back and forth in front of the establishment with a sign on my chest and back. When I went home, I wrote note from the children of the City and asked him again to not bring those types of people into their neighborhood. I mailed it.

After the third day I went for a walk around the small area I lived. One of the earlier prophets told us that now was the time to go into the cracks and crevices to find God’s children. I follow the prophets, living and dead  I went back to the Government building to learn who were the owners of certain places. I then, went to the door of a whore house and knocked. I could see the eye behind the peek hole, and spoke very loudly, “I know who you are and what you are doing. WE don’t want you here.” I then went to the neighbors and let them know I was going to be picketing and why. I went home to prepare, and then picketed in front of the building for three days, as I had the other place. Again, I got honks, and thumbs up, but walked alone. After, I went into each alley during the dawn hours and knocked on car windows where there were people engaged in sexual activities. I shamed them, and let them know others were watching. I asked people leave their outside lights on at night. I took gloves and pick up tools to gather the condoms and empty needles before the children got up for school.

Then, I went downtown, and noticed some things that were already in town. I again went back and found out who the owners where. I was more than livid. I marched into the City/County Building during a meeting open to the public. I signed up to ask a question, then waiting my turn. While I waited I prayed and asked to be calm so I could say what needed to be said.

I walked up to where the Mayor was sitting and stared at him, until he looked up. I got as close to him as I could, and put my finger in front of his nose. “Shame on you!” I said. “You told me you were here to protect the women and children in this city and yet you are part owner in whore houses, abortion clinics, leather shops, paraphernalia shops. Shame on you!” The other members of the council lowered their eyes and heads, but he just sat there smiling.  I let him know that I had told Heavenly Father on him, then turned and went home.

In the past I have paid a high price for speaking truth. I have been tortured, drugged, locked up, laughed at, spit upon, and worse. But I share this with you. When people do not listen to the prophets, they reap the whirlwinds of God. Since when is murder of innocents an option? I’m sorry, but this sin is most grievous. When I first came here, I saw abortion clinics being advertised in public. I wrote to every religious person in town. I got only two letters back. One from an Orthodox Jewish Rabbi and the other from the President of the Church of Latter-day-saints.

I thank God for His righteous sons and their wives. They know whom they stand for. I know whom I stand for. Whom do you choose?

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May God Bless America

I pledge Allegiance to the flag of the United States of America and to the Republic for which it stands, one nation under God, indivisible, with Liberty and Justice for all. 

Why have we allowed others to take GOD out of America? Why have we allowed others to make Prayers Illegal? This is not what God had in mind when He dedicated America for the safety of His people. 

Here, in America we have welcomed all people. Yet, why have we allowed them to change what we stand for? That is not why this great country was founded by our forefathers. Perhaps you never lived where murder was common place. Perhaps you have not lived where you were tortured every day because you said incest was wrong. Perhaps you have not been drugged, and beaten and tortured by others because of what you believe. I HAVE!

If you don’t stand up for what is right in America, than you are what is wrong in America. Do you really believe that the God who created this planet will allow this to continue forever?

May Father will forgive my outburst, and allow me to stay free, nonetheless, I shall speak up for what is right, even if I am killed by those who want to stop me. I may have to roll in a wheelchair up to the Capital, but I shall do it nonetheless. I may not have arms to defend myself any longer, yet I shall continue to speak truth. I have been heard in many places and many states when evil is trying to creep in unawares. I shall not be silent unless God Himself asks me to be still. Perhaps this is why He has given me this particular illness. So I can be still and allow others to stand up.

Please, I beg of you, Stand Up and do something before God Himself does it for you.

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